Welcomed Home (Leesa)

 

When my husband filed for divorce very unexpectedly, my life turned completely upside down. I was angry, hurt, lost…and I wanted answers I knew I would never get. I cried more than anyone could ever imagine. The pain was so intense I thought I was going to die. That’s when my life started to spiral quickly down the wrong path.

 

I began living a lifestyle that I am not very proud of. To take away the emptiness I was feeling, I began drinking and going out to places I should not have been. I was searching to find some sort of comfort, something to ease the pain. I never cared about what I was doing until my sister told me that she was afraid for my life.

 

While driving to lunch one afternoon, I saw a “Divorce Care” sign in the churchyard. I knew I needed help turning my life around, so I called the number on the sign. I never imagined that one phone call would change my life forever. I attended the first class and met the most wonderful, loving, godly people. They took me into their hearts on that very first day.

 

I was able to share all my thoughts, feelings, fears, anger and doubts. We all cried together and prayed together, which was something I was not used to doing. They comforted me and let me know it would take a lot of time and faith to get over all of the emotions I was feeling. As far as I was concerned, forgiveness was never going to happen. The wall I had built around my heart was too strong.

 

But as I started to learn more about what God could do in my life, everything started to change. I began to feel the comfort of his presence and love He had for me. I knew with God in my life, I would never be alone again. I soon began to accept my singleness and realized I didn’t need a man in my life to be complete. Finding this church and having my new friends lead me to God totally saved my live from destruction. I know this to be true. I gave my life to the Lord on August 17, 2005. It was the best day of my life--washing away all of the sins of my past and receiving a fresh start in the eyes of God. Wow!

 

How awesome to be able to say I am free from the past. I have handed over all my anger, hurt, fears, and unforgiving spirit to him. He will take care of all that for me. Growing my heart towards God is my new goal. Our God is definitely an awesome God!